"Thank God for this gift, too wonderful for words." 2 Corinthians 9:15
This was the verse I received in my email the day we found out I was pregnant in December 2014. God has had his hand in this pregnancy from day one. I admit that when I found out I was pregnant I was not happy. I didn't want to be pregnant. It wasn't the right time for me. I didn't feel healthy or fit. We were't planning on getting pregnant for several months! It took me a few weeks to finally be "ok" with being pregnant. I knew this pregnancy was going to be different from the start. I just didn't realize HOW different!
The day I found out I was having twins was a day I will never forget. Not only was God allowing me to be pregnant but now we were going to have two! I was torn between shock and horrible fear. We are a one income family. How in the world will we be able to afford twins? What about me homeschooling Jonah in the fall for preschool? What about having to buy a bigger vehicle? Why would God do this to us? To me?
So many questions and worries ran through my mind everyday. If I had to pinpoint a major sin of mine it would be worry. I tend to worry about everything instead of handing it over to our Lord. I questioned him so many times when I should have asked him for help and handed all my burdens to him.
I came to the point where there wasn't anything I could do to "fix" this. I had a night of crying, confessing, pleading and asking for forgiveness for my sins that finally opened my eyes. It's crazy how one major conversation with God can be a life changer. God opened my eyes and helped me see the good in his plan.
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13
What an amazing heavenly father we have! All praises to him.
Stay tuned because my next post will be about how God continues to work in his majestic ways especially in surprising situations: the early birth of our girls!
In Him,
Angie K
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